He’s gone again for two weeks. It’s only the first day though. I hate thinking about eight months next year. I was upset at myself this morning because I haven’t been doing anything but instigating arguments with him since yesterday. I physically and emotionally distanced myself knowing that I would hate myself for it later. Sure enough, this morning after dropping him off I regretted not sitting closer on the couch, not laughing at his jokes and not reaching for him. I guess I thought that maybe if we weren’t getting along then it would be easier to say goodbye. It wasn’t. Thankfully I have an amazing husband. He came back home with a borrowed car just to comfort me.
Love is not selfish. Think of your significant other in everything you do. Consider them in all your decisions and don’t do anything because you’re expecting something in return. I think this is a good one to keep in mind for everything. I was selfish today in a few things I did but I was also able to be less selfish in another thing I did. It was definitely a hard one. Along with this dare I kept the last two in mind too. I feel a lot more at ease already with these dares. Talking to my husband is easier when I can keep these things in mind and we have been having a lot more pleasant conversations. How are you doing with it?